Now since ecigsa is my "support group" of sorts, I need to own up to my sponsor and hopefully I can get some perspective:
I sometimes crave to smoke.
I have been off stinkies for going on 80 days, but sometimes when I look at smokers smoking, I get a craving to smoke a cigarette. I look to my mod and continue puffing away, but I cant help but feel like it is my "second" choice. I dont have nicotine cravings, its just that I look at a smoker and somehow find myself remembering how it used to be when I smoked and then I miss it. Difficult to describe exactly what about it I miss. I guess after you have smoked 14 years you kind off get used to the smell, the social rejection, the constant bitter taste in your mouth and somehow for some weird reason you internalize all of these. I miss that? I miss being a "smoker". Maybe its the solitude of sucking on toxic waste.
I sometimes crave to smoke.
I have been off stinkies for going on 80 days, but sometimes when I look at smokers smoking, I get a craving to smoke a cigarette. I look to my mod and continue puffing away, but I cant help but feel like it is my "second" choice. I dont have nicotine cravings, its just that I look at a smoker and somehow find myself remembering how it used to be when I smoked and then I miss it. Difficult to describe exactly what about it I miss. I guess after you have smoked 14 years you kind off get used to the smell, the social rejection, the constant bitter taste in your mouth and somehow for some weird reason you internalize all of these. I miss that? I miss being a "smoker". Maybe its the solitude of sucking on toxic waste.