#ITSOKAYTOTALK - Mental Illness
- Thread starter brotiform
- Start date
Thanks for the great update @Viper_SA 
How is everyone else doing?
Between work, house renovations, caring for my sick girlfriend and trying to manage my own insomnia and anxiety, I am feeling quite drained at the moment There is a lot to look forward to though, especially with the new house, we are on the final stretch with moving day being just short of mid August.
How is everyone else doing?Between work, house renovations, caring for my sick girlfriend and trying to manage my own insomnia and anxiety, I am feeling quite drained at the moment
There is a lot to look forward to though, especially with the new house, we are on the final stretch with moving day being just short of mid August.
Check in time, how is everyone doing?
Trudging.
"To Trudge: the slow weary depressing yet determined walk of a man (or woman) who has nothing left in his (or her) life except the impulse to simply soldier on." (Chaucer, "A Knight's Tale")
The gloom of winter brings out the drama queen in me, it's not really all that bad. Summer's on its way, all I need to do is take the next step, and then the next, and so on.
Regards
It amazing how my vaping hobby plus the added bonus of nicotine, helps to distract from the stress of the 21st century.
Sent from my SM-N950F using Tapatalk
Sent from my SM-N950F using Tapatalk
Thanks for checking in @Raindance
We all trudge at times, for whatever reason, but at times that is all we need to do. It reminds me of the poem If by Rudyard Kipling which has the lines...If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew
To serve your turn long after they are gone,
And so hold on when there is nothing in you
Except the Will which says to them: ‘Hold on!’
Keep trudging, if that is all you can give at the moment, moving is more important than standing still.
I stopped vaping a little while back without too much fuss but I do really miss it when I am stressed
It was always great to step out the office or flat in to the open for a breather and a vape.
One step after another.
One second to the next becomes one minute to another.
This evolves to hours flowing into each other.
Eventually, you are able to take it one day at a time.
Days become months and then, well, I don't actually know for sure yet, I've built myself up from living second to second almost a year ago to month by month at the moment.
I'll sign off with my favourite Afrikaans word. It has so many wonderful layers of meaning when used in this context.
Sterkte.
Doing well these days. Still have some things like the anxiety to sort out, but I'm hopeful I can get to a better place with it. Seeing the doc on 23rd.
I have my special someone in my life, and I couldn't ask for more. I am a happy woman!
That is great to hear @Carnival
Thanks for the update, good luck with the anxiety and the doctors appointment. Enjoy your time with your special someone!
Hi all
I hope that everyone is doing well?
It has been a rough few works, with work ramping up at our house that we are renovating, including some setbacks and issues which are to be expected but frustrating none the less. I have never done any minor or major work anywhere I have lived so it has been a massive eye opener and learning experience for me, which I have sometimes handled just fine and at other times have freaked out completely! Work continues though and we have put a peg in the ground for mid August to move in...
The roughest part over the last few weeks though, has been helping my girlfriend get through some medical and mental issues, the bulk of which were caused by a medical drug called Lupron. Some may have heard of it, it is commonly used for women suffering from endometriosis and for men undergoing treatment for prostate cancer, it's side affects include hot flashes, sweating, acne, rash, itching, scaly skin; mood changes, headache, general pain, etc. She has unfortunately had just about all these symptons with a few bouts of severe depression. A suggestion for anyone who is recommended it, do your research and discuss it fully with your doctor, we didn't so a lot of what happened was largely unexpected.
Anyway, we are off to the bush for nearly a week, which will let us relax a bit!
I hope that everyone is doing well?
It has been a rough few works, with work ramping up at our house that we are renovating, including some setbacks and issues which are to be expected but frustrating none the less. I have never done any minor or major work anywhere I have lived so it has been a massive eye opener and learning experience for me, which I have sometimes handled just fine and at other times have freaked out completely! Work continues though and we have put a peg in the ground for mid August to move in...
The roughest part over the last few weeks though, has been helping my girlfriend get through some medical and mental issues, the bulk of which were caused by a medical drug called Lupron. Some may have heard of it, it is commonly used for women suffering from endometriosis and for men undergoing treatment for prostate cancer, it's side affects include hot flashes, sweating, acne, rash, itching, scaly skin; mood changes, headache, general pain, etc. She has unfortunately had just about all these symptons with a few bouts of severe depression. A suggestion for anyone who is recommended it, do your research and discuss it fully with your doctor, we didn't so a lot of what happened was largely unexpected.
Anyway, we are off to the bush for nearly a week, which will let us relax a bit!
Enjoy the break and come back with a refreshed perspective. Renovations, both large and small are hectic. I find that freaking out just improves your contractors quality of work. LOL.
Regards
Having a particularly kak day with anxiety today. I have a million things I want to do, but can't seem to just pick one task and focus on that task. My mind is running around in circles and my body just wants to go to sleep. Thank God though for my new girlfriend and all her patience and support. Really does help. I just feel a bit like I'm overloading her with my issues and maybe not supporting her as I should. Waiting on the doctor to get back to me with arrangements for a new script. Apparently I have quite a few markers for add/adhd that she wants to put me on a trial period for.
Well since there is a forum to talk... lets talk.
Short version: Was diagnosed with bad depression in 2010. Was on a hand full of pills for a few years and one day I decided I had enough and changed my whole way of living. Everything went well from 2015 to this year. Married the love of my live last year October and he has been very supportive in everything going on with me. We moved to Saldanha from Jo'burg in December. Everything went well and then February the depression came creeping back. I am working from home. Not seeing people every day. Used to work in a very busy financial office. I have contact with them every day as I still work remotely for them.
But not having friends around or people to talk to every day got to me. The fact that we are limited to things available to us here is also a factor. If you want something you have to order and pay extra due to courier charges. Family is in Cape Town, but thats an hour 45 mins drive. I went to the doctor in April and got some happy pills and something for the anxiety. But during this time various things flared up. I dont have a will to eat. My T1 diabetes is wonky. Struggle with high sugar levels. I found out a month ago I have a frozen shoulder. Suffering with headaches. Being in pain constantly is not fun.
I have lost the urge to do anything. I get up in the morning and think I really need to do this today. Sit infront of the laptop and then I do nothing. Wait for 12:00 and get in bed and sleep till 15:00. Wait for hubby to get home eat dinner watch some TV and go back to the laptop just to do some mindless things. My will is gone. I think if I didnt have my vape gear I would have been more depressed.
And then we dont even want to go down the road of money being an issue. Going from a Salary over R25k to just over R10k is depressing at its own. I have my own website design and hosting business. But no new clients the past 4 months. And the people around here are stuck in their ways with the people they know.
Ok. think this is enough for me draining my thoughts for the day.
Short version: Was diagnosed with bad depression in 2010. Was on a hand full of pills for a few years and one day I decided I had enough and changed my whole way of living. Everything went well from 2015 to this year. Married the love of my live last year October and he has been very supportive in everything going on with me. We moved to Saldanha from Jo'burg in December. Everything went well and then February the depression came creeping back. I am working from home. Not seeing people every day. Used to work in a very busy financial office. I have contact with them every day as I still work remotely for them.
But not having friends around or people to talk to every day got to me. The fact that we are limited to things available to us here is also a factor. If you want something you have to order and pay extra due to courier charges. Family is in Cape Town, but thats an hour 45 mins drive. I went to the doctor in April and got some happy pills and something for the anxiety. But during this time various things flared up. I dont have a will to eat. My T1 diabetes is wonky. Struggle with high sugar levels. I found out a month ago I have a frozen shoulder. Suffering with headaches. Being in pain constantly is not fun.
I have lost the urge to do anything. I get up in the morning and think I really need to do this today. Sit infront of the laptop and then I do nothing. Wait for 12:00 and get in bed and sleep till 15:00. Wait for hubby to get home eat dinner watch some TV and go back to the laptop just to do some mindless things. My will is gone. I think if I didnt have my vape gear I would have been more depressed.
And then we dont even want to go down the road of money being an issue. Going from a Salary over R25k to just over R10k is depressing at its own. I have my own website design and hosting business. But no new clients the past 4 months. And the people around here are stuck in their ways with the people they know.
Ok. think this is enough for me draining my thoughts for the day.
So it was about this time last year I was in the midst of the worst time of my life professionally, psychologically, emotionally, entirely.
A year later, I can barely recognize that person. Back on my feet standing 100ft tall. I still get manic episodes, I still get depressive episode, but damn... I'm now walking with purpose, instead of marching glumly to my coffin.
One foot in front of the other. One day at a time. It can get better, but you have to persist. You have to work. It sounds cliche, it sounds trite, but no matter how difficult it is to slog through, it is worth it on the other side. The only way out is through. It will never be perfect, but it can get better. Much better.
Thank you all, each and every person on this forum has made a difference in MY life.
C
A year later, I can barely recognize that person. Back on my feet standing 100ft tall. I still get manic episodes, I still get depressive episode, but damn... I'm now walking with purpose, instead of marching glumly to my coffin.
One foot in front of the other. One day at a time. It can get better, but you have to persist. You have to work. It sounds cliche, it sounds trite, but no matter how difficult it is to slog through, it is worth it on the other side. The only way out is through. It will never be perfect, but it can get better. Much better.
Thank you all, each and every person on this forum has made a difference in MY life.
C
A couple big things happened this week. Started on new meds 2 nights ago (so far so good, hoping it works out for me!) and that's always a bit stressful because you never know whether you'll react badly to new meds or not. Lastly, I got a new tattoo done yesterday that was long overdue. Close to 8 hours of work on it! Initially I was just looking to have a cover up over my left hand but this one turned out to be a half sleeve. The artwork is beautiful, so I'm really happy with it! @Viper_SA inspired me to go through the process of getting it done, and I'm so glad I did - thank you again for all the help and support, you are wonderful!
Pics or it did not happen
Awesome!!!
Stunning!
Similar threads
