#ITSOKAYTOTALK - Mental Illness

Raindance said:
Enjoy the break and come back with a refreshed perspective. Renovations, both large and small are hectic. I find that freaking out just improves your contractors quality of work. LOL.

Regards
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Thanks Raindance :wink: The break was great even though we had to cut it short, straight back in to work and the house renovations, both of which are keeping me busy.
 
Viper_SA said:
Having a particularly kak day with anxiety today. I have a million things I want to do, but can't seem to just pick one task and focus on that task. My mind is running around in circles and my body just wants to go to sleep. Thank God though for my new girlfriend and all her patience and support. Really does help. I just feel a bit like I'm overloading her with my issues and maybe not supporting her as I should. Waiting on the doctor to get back to me with arrangements for a new script. Apparently I have quite a few markers for add/adhd that she wants to put me on a trial period for.
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I hope you are doing a bit better @Viper_SA? It is great to have a special person in your life...
 
Braki said:
Well since there is a forum to talk... lets talk.

Short version: Was diagnosed with bad depression in 2010. Was on a hand full of pills for a few years and one day I decided I had enough and changed my whole way of living. Everything went well from 2015 to this year. Married the love of my live last year October and he has been very supportive in everything going on with me. We moved to Saldanha from Jo'burg in December. Everything went well and then February the depression came creeping back. I am working from home. Not seeing people every day. Used to work in a very busy financial office. I have contact with them every day as I still work remotely for them.

But not having friends around or people to talk to every day got to me. The fact that we are limited to things available to us here is also a factor. If you want something you have to order and pay extra due to courier charges. Family is in Cape Town, but thats an hour 45 mins drive. I went to the doctor in April and got some happy pills and something for the anxiety. But during this time various things flared up. I dont have a will to eat. My T1 diabetes is wonky. Struggle with high sugar levels. I found out a month ago I have a frozen shoulder. Suffering with headaches. Being in pain constantly is not fun.

I have lost the urge to do anything. I get up in the morning and think I really need to do this today. Sit infront of the laptop and then I do nothing. Wait for 12:00 and get in bed and sleep till 15:00. Wait for hubby to get home eat dinner watch some TV and go back to the laptop just to do some mindless things. My will is gone. I think if I didnt have my vape gear I would have been more depressed.

And then we dont even want to go down the road of money being an issue. Going from a Salary over R25k to just over R10k is depressing at its own. I have my own website design and hosting business. But no new clients the past 4 months. And the people around here are stuck in their ways with the people they know.

Ok. think this is enough for me draining my thoughts for the day.
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Thanks for sharing @Braki :wink: We are all here for you, share as you need, it makes things a little easier...
 
I am visiting one of divisions head offices in Woodmead today, where I haven't been in a long time, but a lot of memories are coming back. I was based here for a while when I moved out from living with my now ex wife so some of the memories are tough to face but I also started vaping while here which helped me get through many tough times. It was also while I was here that @brotiform started this thread and the subsequent It's OK To Talk WhatsApp group. I miss @brotiform since he left for the UK but chat to him every now and then...
 
Been off the forum for a while.

Got promoted at work, and though my boss never previously mind me advertising and just randomly putting vape gear as my what's app status, he actually called me in to say that I need to shift my focus to work.

This sucked particularly because they found on my browser that I would frequent the ecigsa page.

Since then I forced myself to spend too much time online-generally resorting to lurking in the shadows.

I've now overcome that obsticale though-I've gotten a pc without management being able to access my personal stuff :D
 
BATMAN said:
Been off the forum for a while.

Got promoted at work, and though my boss never previously mind me advertising and just randomly putting vape gear as my what's app status, he actually called me in to say that I need to shift my focus to work.

This sucked particularly because they found on my browser that I would frequent the ecigsa page.

Since then I forced myself to spend too much time online-generally resorting to lurking in the shadows.

I've now overcome that obsticale though-I've gotten a pc without management being able to access my personal stuff :D
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Grats on the promotion. Sometimes when something like that happens it boosts the positive thoughts. But then again when you are told what to do in your personal capacity sucks. Atleast you dont you have to lurk anymore :)
 
Thanks @Braki it feels good to be back on the forum.

Been trying to catch up as much as possible :whew:
 
@BATMAN congrats on the promotion! That's awesome. Glad you were able to get a private PC, and welcome back to the forum. :)
 
I'm feeling adventurous tonight, so, I wanted to shout this off the rooftops, but since I'm afraid of heights this platform will have to do.... @Carnival, I love you, and I want everyone to know! Thank you so very much for coming into my life. "Two roads converged in a wood, and I took the one less traveled; and that has made all the difference"
 
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Viper_SA said:
I'm feeling adventurous tonight, so, I wanted to shout this off the rooftops, but since I'm afraid of heights this platform will have to do.... @Carnival, I love, and I want everyone to know! Thank you so very much for coming into my life. "Two roads converged in a wood, and I took the one less traveled; and that has made all the difference"
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@Viper_SA I love you too! I’m so proud to call you mine. You mean the world to me and more. :h:
 
BATMAN said:
Been off the forum for a while.

Got promoted at work, and though my boss never previously mind me advertising and just randomly putting vape gear as my what's app status, he actually called me in to say that I need to shift my focus to work.

This sucked particularly because they found on my browser that I would frequent the ecigsa page.

Since then I forced myself to spend too much time online-generally resorting to lurking in the shadows.

I've now overcome that obsticale though-I've gotten a pc without management being able to access my personal stuff :D
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Congrats batman !

Where are I last worked, the internet was firewalled and only "Approved" sites were accessable. Then there was a craze of playing clash of clans on phones, so the company built lockers for us and implemented no phones policy.
 
@Faiyaz Cheulkar that's hectic bro.

But alot of companies are going towards those implementations these days, the only other way is to wing it at night
 
Currently watching Best of the Best part 2 with my berserker mini and some 25MG Ruby Grapefruit salt nics.

How I love 'me-time'...
 
Thanks to evryonr that tryd to help me. It juste wasn[ enouhg in th~ end
 
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