There is an old saying: "Never say never".
When I started vaping in January this year, I resolved to never smoke cigarettes again. I was absolutely adamant.
In about June, I went through a very stressful patch at work. I ran out of juice and I forgot my Atties at home one day. I also had some nasty bills to pay, so the cash flow was down.
So one day, in a moment of weakness, I bought a pack of cigarettes. Basically I smoked cigarettes exclusively for 2 months thereafter. During that time I was also away from home for 3 weeks, with no access to vaping gear or juice. The cigarette smoking made me feel horrible, unhealthy and guilty.
31 August, I dropped the cigarettes, serviced all my equipment, bought juice and made up my mind to only vape again.
Now I am so afraid of another relapse that I have developed an obsession with keeping so much vape gear constantly with me.
The obsession is as follows:
I keep 2 drippers and juice in my office.
I have a briefcase which I convey 3 drippers, 1 RTA and 1 sub ohm tank and 5 mods with me as well as spare batteries, to work and back. I also take a back pack with me to work and back, loaded with juice, a tool box, cotton, coils, a battery charger, and coil wire. I keep my old Twisp Aero in my pocket always incase I am stuck in a meeting or separated from my bags. I guard my bags like crazy.
When I go to the shops, I have a small "man bag" with 2 units, spare coils in and my old Twisp in my pocket. I constantly check my bags to see if I have enough supplies.
If I go to a social, I do the same and keep fresh batteries with me.
I am so obsessed with vaping as I am terrified if having another relapse. I constantly tell myself I need to buy more equipment for "back ups". I visit the Sir Vape website every day to see what my next purchase will be. I spend hours on You Tube watching tons of reviews.
I spend hours at my desk at home building different coils for practice and to keep them on hand. I am always cleaning my gear and making sure my batteries are charged.
The only way I feel I can justify this obsession is by telling myself that this is a "hobby" and it is healthy to have a hobby as it keeps your mind occupied and add more meaning to ones life.
I am so afraid of a cigarette relapse. I learned again: "beware -- never say never".
Am I the only one so obsessed?
Would love to read others stories.
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When I started vaping in January this year, I resolved to never smoke cigarettes again. I was absolutely adamant.
In about June, I went through a very stressful patch at work. I ran out of juice and I forgot my Atties at home one day. I also had some nasty bills to pay, so the cash flow was down.
So one day, in a moment of weakness, I bought a pack of cigarettes. Basically I smoked cigarettes exclusively for 2 months thereafter. During that time I was also away from home for 3 weeks, with no access to vaping gear or juice. The cigarette smoking made me feel horrible, unhealthy and guilty.
31 August, I dropped the cigarettes, serviced all my equipment, bought juice and made up my mind to only vape again.
Now I am so afraid of another relapse that I have developed an obsession with keeping so much vape gear constantly with me.
The obsession is as follows:
I keep 2 drippers and juice in my office.
I have a briefcase which I convey 3 drippers, 1 RTA and 1 sub ohm tank and 5 mods with me as well as spare batteries, to work and back. I also take a back pack with me to work and back, loaded with juice, a tool box, cotton, coils, a battery charger, and coil wire. I keep my old Twisp Aero in my pocket always incase I am stuck in a meeting or separated from my bags. I guard my bags like crazy.
When I go to the shops, I have a small "man bag" with 2 units, spare coils in and my old Twisp in my pocket. I constantly check my bags to see if I have enough supplies.
If I go to a social, I do the same and keep fresh batteries with me.
I am so obsessed with vaping as I am terrified if having another relapse. I constantly tell myself I need to buy more equipment for "back ups". I visit the Sir Vape website every day to see what my next purchase will be. I spend hours on You Tube watching tons of reviews.
I spend hours at my desk at home building different coils for practice and to keep them on hand. I am always cleaning my gear and making sure my batteries are charged.
The only way I feel I can justify this obsession is by telling myself that this is a "hobby" and it is healthy to have a hobby as it keeps your mind occupied and add more meaning to ones life.
I am so afraid of a cigarette relapse. I learned again: "beware -- never say never".
Am I the only one so obsessed?
Would love to read others stories.
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. We are all different in many ways and while some don’t relapse we all can’t be 'that' person
