#ITSOKAYTOTALK - Mental Illness

[Lord Vetinari]

Im neither mocking nor making light of anyones state of mental health, dont mistake my clowning around in other threads as shallow inability or lack of empathy.

I hear you.
Im saying that sign is more than just an "Ok", as evidenced by its appearance in the last 50yrs in mainstream media.
When did the good old "thumbs up" get replaced as a universal sign for "good" ?

Nah man. This is a serious thread. I just pulled through a very dark patch myself. Lets keep David Icke and his madness away. Thumbs up is NOT universal for OK. In diving it means 'I am surfacing'and the OK symbol is the ringed fingers. Pilots also use this as an affirmative as far as I recall. Thumbs up is less universal tbh.

Anyhow much respect to those able to share. I will think about doing so myself. But personally I am more of a sweep it under the carpet and sweat in terror all night kinda guy.

 

[JB1987]

I see no one has posted in a while, just wanted to wish everyone well with their internal battles. Always remember, you are not alone.

 

[Viper_SA]

Some days it's hard to admit that you don't see the light at the end of the tunnel. How do you tell people that you spend most of your time thinking about eating a bullet. Don't think the change from Lithium to Epitec is really working for me.

 

[Viper_SA]

 

[Effjh]

Some days it's hard to admit that you don't see the light at the end of the tunnel. How do you tell people that you spend most of your time thinking about eating a bullet. Don't think the change from Lithium to Epitec is really working for me.

Hey bud.. if your meds aren't working for you, speak to your health care professional ASAP to look at alternatives and inform them when you are at a lower point. My old man "ate a bullet" because he stopped taking his meds and didn't seek help when things got worse.

If you decide to eat a bullet you won't feel a thing, but the people that love and care about you will feel the worst pain imaginable. Hang in there, but not by yourself or for yourself, seek help when it gets dark, don't close up and don't be ashamed to admit it to others. You will pull through again with support from friends, family and doctors.

 

[Viper_SA]

Thanks people, feeling much better today. Might just be the fact, that I haven't had a vacation since 2009 and haven't gotten laid in almost 5 years Oh, and I don't own a firearm, so that is a major obsticle anywah

 

[craigb]

Any day that I make it through to bedtime is considered a good day by me.
More is nog 'n dag.

@Viper_SA : the universe hates us - that's why we have to take those damn meds. Survive to spite the universe. World + dog aint beaten us yet so screw 'em. Let the universe throw its worst. We've already proven strong enough up to now - even though some days we didn't know how we made it - we still f***ing made it!!!

 

[Neuk]

I haven't been on ecigssa in a while, it is a mad rush to the end of the year at work so I am super busy at the moment. I hope everyone is doing well?

@Viper_SA Hang in there bud, I won't pretend to know what you are going through, but I know for sure that eating a bullet is not the answer.

 

[AniDey]

Does anyone know how @brotiform is?

 

[Feliks Karp]

On the verge of losing my shit. The jukskei river flooded hard today and eventually came in to my house,lost a lot of stuff, my car even flipped - complete write off - almost drown saving my dog, lost a bunch of photos and childhood stuff, my house is like swamp. Really just **** this year.

 

[Viper_SA]

Holy shyte man, that sucks! As long as everyone is alive and well, I suppose it's a silver lining. Please let us know how things progress

 

[Feliks Karp]

I don't even know wtf to start, I guess calling the bank is the best thing, after that **** me, I have no idea and I'm so terrified it will rain again like this tonight. My house stinks to high heaven, still flooded, I was home alone and my blood sugar dropped to pure fumes, I had to eat raw parsnips and some potato because the water had hit a socket, just to get enough energy to try sort out my dogs and break open some sliding doors to allow some of the water out. My outer place is completely bogged up with garbage, the sheer amount of shit that goes in to rivers is mind boggling. My vape went flat, I managed to only lose one pair of batteries and a mod, TF I have two. My neighbours gave me smokes to get me through and charged my phone.

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[Caramia]

YIKES @Feliks Karp!
I am so sorry it struck you too.
This is never nice, and I have not seen such devastation since I was little and the Morelettaspruit came down in Lynnwood. It was scary times!
STRONGS TO YOU! I am certain you will get the strength to pull through this if I were able, I would come help...
Please keep us updated?

 

[Neuk]

Does anyone know how @brotiform is?

He is doing OK, he has his moments but is trying to get his life back on track.

 

[Stosta]

I don't even know wtf to start, I guess calling the bank is the best thing, after that **** me, I have no idea and I'm so terrified it will rain again like this tonight. My house stinks to high heaven, still flooded, I was home alone and my blood sugar dropped to pure fumes, I had to eat raw parsnips and some potato because the water had hit a socket, just to get enough energy to try sort out my dogs and break open some sliding doors to allow some of the water out. My outer place is completely bogged up with garbage, the sheer amount of shit that goes in to rivers is mind boggling. My vape went flat, I managed to only lose one pair of batteries and a mod, TF I have two. My neighbours gave me smokes to get me through and charged my phone.

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Wow buddy! That is some serious damage! I wouldn't know where to start either...

Suppose you get your insurance to send an assessor, but I have no idea how long that will take. You let me know if there's anything I can do, but I don't suppose I can do much from the other side of the country, but still, let me know.

 

[Neuk]

Bloody hell @Feliks Karp I hope all gets sorted soon and we don't have the same amount of rain tonight!

 

[rogue zombie]

Jees sorry about that @Feliks Karp

I heard of some 'Crisis Management' something something getting set up, but I don't know if that is to just for State owned damage, or to help individuals.

 

[AniDey]

Oh no!! @Feliks Karp
Hope you see the light soon.

 

[Michaelsa]

Look, for the better part of my short existence i have battled with this most mocked and overlooked of illnesses. People view it as a state of mind and an issue which is overcome by "manning up", the same mentality which brought me to near D**** on numerous occasions.
I am stating the above in vagueness for reason.
I did not succeed in any of my attempts, for whatever reason, It took much mental meditation to come to the realization of what i was living for.

All i can say is, if you are even contemplating the worst, and you have already come this far. Why not choose to do what makes you happy? After all what is the worst that can happen?

Sincerely, and with much LOVE

Just a human

Michael G. Kay


If anyone here needs anything, at anytime, anywhere, my mobile number is 082 042 0249 DO NOT HESITATE TO CALL.

 

[Viper_SA]

@Feliks Karp
Geez bru! Had no kdea it was THAT bad up north. Strongs mate, let us know if you need anything hey

 

[Feliks Karp]

I'm tip-toeing the line, I'm not a suicide risk, but I'm like on the edge of losing my mind. In total I've lost 4 1/2 kg since the flood, that's now been a week, I'm battling so hard to get my blood sugar up, which is weird because of the diabetes i should want it low, but I've gone hypoglycemic twice in the last week, I ate a kak load of carbs and still woke up with a blood sugar of 4, which isn't bad, but is way lower than it should be considering the carbs I ate. We had 3 home robberies yesterday just up the road, because of structural damage, we ourselves chased off 2 guys here, I had to damage a major door in my house to get the river out when it was flooding, so I'm sitting partly exposed, my own and my neighbours dogs were barking all night, i've had 4 hrs of sleep, my nose has started gushing out blood on a regular basis, I want to live by the sea, drink coffee and write novels.

 

[craigb]

I want to live by the sea, drink coffee and write novels.

Now thats the dream!!! A comfy spot in Paternoster (spelling), good South American Java on tap and a Zombie novel on the go for me please.

Can't help much with the physical situation, but if you need someone to talk/rant at/to that kinda understands the head space, I can PM my number or if you are anywhere near Braamfontein or Benoni at anytime I can offer a KFC or McDs coffee to chat over (even if just about the novels you will write)

Offer stands to @Feliks Karp or anyone else that feels they need someone else that's also a bit f'd in the head to chat with.

 

[Viper_SA]

So, I snuck away from work to bring my mom to the specialist for her bladder. On the, three school laaities were driving in front of us. If I overtoom them, I'd be over the speed limit in a zone known for traps. So, I kept a 3 car following distance. Next thing the doos slams full on on his brakes. I overtake and carry on, even after being given the bird by all three. Then they come racing up behind me, flashing lights and shit and more birdies. I still ignore them. They take the slipway left, still with the birdies and now fists point at me. So, I calmly show him to pull over so I can crack some heads. More birdies, and off the coward races. Left my mod at work, first thing I reached for was one of mom's stinkies. Why the **** do we even allow people like thks to breed? Days like these I am thankful that I don't own a firearm. I will however be printing some school laaitie targets for next time I take the air rifles out for shoot.

 

[craigb]

Hey folks

Been off my lithium and anti depressants for a few months now (going to get them put on chronic from next year so this doesn't repeat)

No major blowups at work (yet), no major (or minor) traffic incidents (although those laaities would probably have had my car blocking the road for them - all in all, well handled @Viper_SA ) and more importantly I've managed to contain any manic outbursts before they became a thing.

Just feels like I have ball bearings rolling around my skull, but hey, could be worse, they could be bowling balls rolling around.

Just don't forget, EVERYONE has bad days, even the boring people.
Don't let the bastards know they getting you down.
The people that love you do understand - and there are people that love you, no matter what your brain chemicals are telling you at the moment.

Rock hard, rock strong, rock on!

 

[Viper_SA]

Think I'm going to switch back to lithium from epitec. I'm up till the early hours of the morning, wide awake, and in the mornings I feeem like a truck ran over me. Was late for work 3 times this week. Think it's time to change anti-deps from serdep too. Becoming very irritable and emotionally detached. I'm emotionally constipated, haven't given a shit in weeks.