#ITSOKAYTOTALK - Mental Illness

[Neuk]

HI friends - my story...
The last 2 years were real bad for me and all the trauma and drama is starting to take it's toll:
been in bad bike accident , broke hip, femur and ankle One week hospital ,5 weeks wheel chair,
Half sister committed suicide =overdose
Mom passed away [old age 96] I am the only son , last born and totally committed to MOM.
The relationship with my only sister is toxic ,She inherited the house and everything inside , I get all the savings and investments.
On the day of Mom's Passing the bxxxh accused me of stealing Mom's rings , while I took her BIBLE from her bedroom . I offered to go to police for polygraph , ''no , don't worry about it etc...''
Mom made a pewter mirror years ago ,That was all I asked for - there is PLENTY antiques that I did'nt asked for ONE THING IS GUARANTEED - SHE WILL NEVER SEE ME AGAIN .
The DR. at RAF stated that I am suffering from POST TRAUMATIC STRESS DISORDER , I shake like a leaf ,get panic attacks
and get black outs for 10 - 30 secs at a time, Boss has send me home twice already. Seeing Dr at the moment and are on 4 types of tablets,[URBANOL .ZYTOMIL ,TRANQIPAM and INDOBLOK 40]
See psyc for first time end of MAY .I feel like I'm going totally mad ,and
Just popping the lot.
Thanks for reading this

Thanks for sharing your story, I wish you strength in your journey, please keep us updated.

 

[ARYANTO]

Thanks for sharing your story, I wish you strength in your journey, please keep us updated.

THANKS for the ''ear'' I get so depressed and the short way seems the best.

 

[Dela Rey Steyn]

THANKS for the ''ear'' I get so depressed and the short way seems the best.

There is always a willing ear on this amazing forum. The biggest obstacle we need to face is ourselves. As long as we talk, as long as we share, we are working through it and moving foward

 

[Neuk]

THANKS for the ''ear'' I get so depressed and the short way seems the best.

Pleasure It is the least that I can do and luckily there are many ears around here.

 

[Viper_SA]

I want to write and update everyone on how I am doing, but I have no idea where to start so much happening in my life right now. All I can say, and I have to say this in Afrikaans for full effect "jy moet slim genoeg wees om te besef wanneer iemand besig is om jou poep te voer!". I've met many bullshitters in my life, and I'm slowly realizing that not everyone that I'm dealing with is 100% honest with me. I could go on, but lets just leave it at that for today

 

[JB1987]

I haven't posted in years. I want to tell a story. I've posted on this thead before, as someone that's been struggling with depression most of my life and later diagnosed with bipolar II. Very recently, a best friend was murdered in his apartment, we also worked together in the same office. I found him after breaking down his apartment door and was the first on the scene. I also had to phone his father that night, it was the day before his 29th birthday. Everyone thought that this would destroy me, and it nearly did. It took me 4 weeks to be able to talk about it. It's strange, I have never placed such a high importance on life, including my own, as I do now. I never realised how my friends will support me until this happened. I thought I was alone in this world, but for 2 weeks no one would leave me alone, I always had someone looking after me (a bit irritating after a while tbh). At the end of the day, I am sad, heartbroken and a bit terrified of what's out there in the night, but, I will not take my life for granted, it can be taken away so easily. I've never thought that I could count on anyone, it was always me against the world.

In the end, I'm here to to listen to anyone that needs it.

 

[ARYANTO]

You learn as you get older what your body needs and what makes your feel healthier. It is not the same for everyone, my preference is for LCHF foods.

I can almost eat everything but I detest green beans - raw off the stalk no prob , but DO NOT try to cook them , I lose my appetite and would prefer to leave the table [ ek gril my dood.]

 

[Neuk]

I want to write and update everyone on how I am doing, but I have no idea where to start so much happening in my life right now. All I can say, and I have to say this in Afrikaans for full effect "jy moet slim genoeg wees om te besef wanneer iemand besig is om jou poep te voer!". I've met many bullshitters in my life, and I'm slowly realizing that not everyone that I'm dealing with is 100% honest with me. I could go on, but lets just leave it at that for today

It is great to hear that you keeping on keeping on bud

 

[Neuk]

I haven't posted in years. I want to tell a story. I've posted on this thead before, as someone that's been struggling with depression most of my life and later diagnosed with bipolar II. Very recently, a best friend was murdered in his apartment, we also worked together in the same office. I found him after breaking down his apartment door and was the first on the scene. I also had to phone his father that night, it was the day before his 29th birthday. Everyone thought that this would destroy me, and it nearly did. It took me 4 weeks to be able to talk about it. It's strange, I have never placed such a high importance on life, including my own, as I do now. I never realised how my friends will support me until this happened. I thought I was alone in this world, but for 2 weeks no one would leave me alone, I always had someone looking after me (a bit irritating after a while tbh). At the end of the day, I am sad, heartbroken and a bit terrified of what's out there in the night, but, I will not take my life for granted, it can be taken away so easily. I've never thought that I could count on anyone, it was always me against the world.

In the end, I'm here to to listen to anyone that needs it.

Thanks so much for sharing your story, I am sorry to hear about your friend, terrible I hope that you find peace in the process of moving on, it sounds like you have found some positive in an otherwise horrible situation.

 

[Neuk]

I can almost eat everything but I detest green beans - raw off the stalk no prob , but DO NOT try to cook them , I lose my appetite and would prefer to leave the table [ ek gril my dood.]

I love green beans Cooked or raw.

 

[RainstormZA]

Eeeew cooked green beans. Just eeeew. I'm happy to eat them raw, straight off the stalk.

 

[Dela Rey Steyn]

Think the only thing I don't eat is Tofu.

 

[ARYANTO]

 

[Dela Rey Steyn]

 

[ARYANTO]

GGOODD Evening dear friends .THE STORY CONTINUES.
Thursday half day, my dear boss hits the factory roof when he saw me. ''you are going on 3 weeks sick leave and I dont' want to lose you in/on one of the machines ''
O xhit what now? , fortunate had a DR [thur] and PSY GUY [fry]appointmet booked . ''ANNOUNCEMENT''14h00 ---''there
will be a prayer meet for the whole factory for Mr BRITS at three'o'clock , Mercy on me ..feeling like a chameleon on a Smarty box.
OK, and brief intro , next a ixulu song . NOW we pray: iafrikaans ixhosa izulu ipedi !englis! some Hindi inbetween but we did pray !
I thanked the group and I felt a weight lift.
At DR,change some tabs and tell me i'm too skinny 92 down to 71 do bloodtests and he'll phone me. At psy and pso -organising me appointments ---got 1 app already. SO there is a power at work .
Good night , have peace
A

 

[Viper_SA]

Having a very confusing morning... Part of me wants to dance on rooftops and part me me wants to be swinging at the end of a rope... Very confusing indeed. Just woke up feeling like that. It's almost as if I am looking in at my life from the "outside". I'm almost as up and down as the playlist on my mp3's this morning, lol.

 

[Viper_SA]

Feeling on top of the world right now! What a difference a few hours can make

 

[ARYANTO]

Wish me congratulations ,well wishes etc... new Dr phoned this afternoon , I am a bunch of nerves, cooly got the news that- I HAVE A HYPER ACTIVE THYROYD. AND there is absolutely nothing wrong with any other spare parts ![TNX for the wishes and prayers]
- Lots of money spent at a female Dr in Norwood .I got new Dr and got an appointment Monday and here the ''Gods of Pharma'' will fill their coffers again .So now it's tabs for life to slow me down, giggle , Mom always said I did things too fast . Dear friends , any info about this ''condition'' will be helpful , A

 

[RainstormZA]

That's great news @ARYANTO. Up and onwards with healing yourself.

 

[ARYANTO]

That's great news @ARYANTO. Up and onwards with healing yourself.

baie dankie , thank you, siyabonga, danke schun , onwards and guts and fight this pestillence.

 

[ARYANTO]

tuesdsy - doctor
thursday one id the many ...cologists..

 

[ARYANTO]

Hi guys , I have had a nightmare time,my life feels like a pile of cowdung in the gravel rd. HYPER ACTIVE THYROYD is last of worries
DR.s suspect mental issues, lost time, falling over, talking like a beer baby ,and just falling on my table and fast asleep !?
T. DR
W .HOSP- psycatrist
TH .HOSP AND BOOKING FOR:
MRI and CAT SCAN ,,,SCARY STUFF"" - I don't have power , cant lift the garage door, and I can't blame Escom
and weight from 92 to..67 nearly fainted when i saw that.

SA,LAAM, NA'MASTE, GOEIENAG ,GOODNIGHT.

 

[Dela Rey Steyn]

Hi guys , I have had a nightmare time,my life feels like a pile of cowdung in the gravel rd. HYPER ACTIVE THYROYD is last of worries
DR.s suspect mental issues, lost time, falling over, talking like a beer baby ,and just falling on my table and fast asleep !?
T. DR
W .HOSP- psycatrist
TH .HOSP AND BOOKING FOR:
MRI and CAT SCAN ,,,SCARY STUFF"" - I don't have power , cant lift the garage door, and I can't blame Escom
and weight from 92 to..67 nearly fainted when i saw that.

SA,LAAM, NA'MASTE, GOEIENAG ,GOODNIGHT.

Wow @ARYANTO , all those medicals must be very draining. That is an insane amount of weight loss

 

[Room Fogger]

Hi guys , I have had a nightmare time,my life feels like a pile of cowdung in the gravel rd. HYPER ACTIVE THYROYD is last of worries
DR.s suspect mental issues, lost time, falling over, talking like a beer baby ,and just falling on my table and fast asleep !?
T. DR
W .HOSP- psycatrist
TH .HOSP AND BOOKING FOR:
MRI and CAT SCAN ,,,SCARY STUFF"" - I don't have power , cant lift the garage door, and I can't blame Escom
and weight from 92 to..67 nearly fainted when i saw that.

SA,LAAM, NA'MASTE, GOEIENAG ,GOODNIGHT.

Hi @ARYANTO , eina Boet, hope they find out and treat it soon, you’re going to look like a crack in a wall if you lose more weight. Just keep on going man, you’re in our thoughts.

 

[ARYANTO]

Hi @ARYANTO , eina Boet, hope they find out and treat it soon, you’re going to look like a crack in a wall if you lose more weight. Just keep on going man, you’re in our thoughts.

MRI EEG EEG AND OTHER SHIT IN PYPLYNN . HET N PIL GEKRY WAT WERT...NEOMERCAZOL 5MG MALGEIT NIE WEG MAAR EK BAIE KALMER . GOON NITE .