#ITSOKAYTOTALK - Mental Illness

Feeling as if there is supposed to be some or other great purpose to my life but that somehow I have missed the boat and now I'm just waiting out my time. A spectator in life, not a participant.

There has to be more than this...

TBH I don't know how to say this without coming across preachy but you it's entirely up to you to decide what you want to do and go do it. Striving towards something meaningful can be a great attitude but it can also leave you ignoring the amazing stuff right in front of you, some days I don't accomplish everything I set out to do, but I feel super chilled because that day happened, and stuff happened, and I get to wake up the next day and go at it again, and so many people don't get that chance, so to me my day was amazing. We're all just star dust with no way of knowing how long our lives are going to last, so if you feel like you want more, go and get it!
 
@Viper_SA - How are you and how is your mom doing?

Thanks for asking bud. Mom is still a bit up and down, but doing better. I was a bit anxious and heavy ocd the weekend, but also better today. Actually feeling a bit under the weather and looking forward to an early night. Maybe it takes getting sick to get me to take things easy, lol.
 
Thanks all, much better today. Just hit a bump in the road there yesterday. @Feliks Karp, great advice as sometimes one forgets the positive and only sees the dark. Sometimes a kick in the butt is just what the doctor ordered as well. Lol.

As to the bump, it was sort of brought on by spending the day alone as I was most of the weekend. Will need to try and avoid such situations in future by actually planning activities for the weekend. Also would not be a bad thing to extend my social circle a bit. Think I may start hiking again.

Thanks for the advice and support.

Regards
 
Thanks all, much better today. Just hit a bump in the road there yesterday. @Feliks Karp, great advice as sometimes one forgets the positive and only sees the dark. Sometimes a kick in the butt is just what the doctor ordered as well. Lol.

As to the bump, it was sort of brought on by spending the day alone as I was most of the weekend. Will need to try and avoid such situations in future by actually planning activities for the weekend. Also would not be a bad thing to extend my social circle a bit. Think I may start hiking again.

Thanks for the advice and support.

Regards

It sounds contrived but at one point I was in a serious rut, and I hadn't seen my best friend in about 2 years, we always seemed to have too much work, other plans, tired etc until one day another really good friend died in a car accident, and we met up for lunch to just reflect on the whole thing, and now we make sure to see each other atleast once a week even if it's just coffee, don't wait for the car wreck, pick up the phone and go get a cuppa joe with that buddy you haven't seen in awhile, it makes a massive difference to my general mood knowing I will see my friend atleast once a week.

A few people I know have gone to a couple events on https://www.meetup.com/ but all in JHB so I don't know what CPT is like, but have a look see, maybe you find a club or get together for a hobby you enjoy.
 


My favourite song which carries this exact sentiment.

'Sometimes darkness can show you the light'

Ever seen a 36 year old guy openly bawling in traffic? Play me that song and wait.

Awesome! By the way, I get what you mean, has the same effect on 51 year olds!

Cowboys don't cry....


.... in front of their horses!

Thanks!
 
Thanks all, much better today. Just hit a bump in the road there yesterday. @Feliks Karp, great advice as sometimes one forgets the positive and only sees the dark. Sometimes a kick in the butt is just what the doctor ordered as well. Lol.

As to the bump, it was sort of brought on by spending the day alone as I was most of the weekend. Will need to try and avoid such situations in future by actually planning activities for the weekend. Also would not be a bad thing to extend my social circle a bit. Think I may start hiking again.

Thanks for the advice and support.

Regards

Like @Feliks Carp says, don't wait until it is too late, pick up the phone and meet that friend of yours Humans are massively social creatures and we thrive when we interact with others, although I know what it is like to want to hope yourself up and just disappear from the rest of the world, resist it with all you have...



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Thanks for asking bud. Mom is still a bit up and down, but doing better. I was a bit anxious and heavy ocd the weekend, but also better today. Actually feeling a bit under the weather and looking forward to an early night. Maybe it takes getting sick to get me to take things easy, lol.

Good to hear bud, please shout if you need to, we are all here for you...


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A good nights sleep goes a long way towards clearing up the mind. Off to the doctor this morning, booked a physical yesterday, hopefully will be able to tick off one more thing I need not worry about. Will see about getting some B12 to assist with the low energy levels which may be the cause of me wanting to hibernate over weekends.

Not looking forward to that prostate examination though...

Cheers! till later.
 
Ok, guys, despite feeling a bit sheepish about my conduct over the weekend some feedback on latest developments.

As mentioned I went for a physical Tuesday and all results were in today. All in order and within acceptable limits. Also got a B12 boost which is paying off good dividends. That weighty tiredness has subsided and its become a lot more difficult to justify my procrastination since.

According to the doc my symptoms are indicative of a lack of prostate activity. He also warned that my monosexual lifestyle is contraindicated as a treatment and recommends I get myself a good woman to assist with remedial therapy. I asked him to give me a prescription but apparently the medical aid wont sanction it.

Guess I'm on my own on this one!

Thanks for putting up with me during this and regards to all.

Cheers!

(Edit: Just to set the record straight: The part about inactivity etc... That's just me giving the truth some scope and added flavor.)
 
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It has been too long, Brotiform has moved to the UK and I miss him, how is everyone else doing?

Been a rough few months for me. On my 3rd psychiatrist in a year's time and the umpteenth prescription. Having what seems to be a very extended anxiety attack that won't let go. I feel like a stranger in my own home and have been squatting at my mom's place for the last 3 weeks. I just can't seem to be alone at all. Even picking up fresh clothes from my house leaves me a nervous wreck. Really struggling to be productive at all. I'm asleep at 8pm and struggle wake up in the mornings. Spent weekends crying my eyes out for no reason at all. But it seems the new psychiatrist and meds are starting to take effect. Much less emotional now, but very irritated by almost everything.

At least it has gotten me praying again, and searching for a church that suits my needs. I just hate that almost all religions that have prayed for me thus far have been telling me to throw away my pills and trust in God alone. Meds are there for a reason. People seem to blame the devil for everything and make me feel like I choose to feel this way.

Anyway, rant over. Hope everyone else is still hanging on.
 
Been a rough few months for me. On my 3rd psychiatrist in a year's time and the umpteenth prescription. Having what seems to be a very extended anxiety attack that won't let go. I feel like a stranger in my own home and have been squatting at my mom's place for the last 3 weeks. I just can't seem to be alone at all. Even picking up fresh clothes from my house leaves me a nervous wreck. Really struggling to be productive at all. I'm asleep at 8pm and struggle wake up in the mornings. Spent weekends crying my eyes out for no reason at all. But it seems the new psychiatrist and meds are starting to take effect. Much less emotional now, but very irritated by almost everything.

At least it has gotten me praying again, and searching for a church that suits my needs. I just hate that almost all religions that have prayed for me thus far have been telling me to throw away my pills and trust in God alone. Meds are there for a reason. People seem to blame the devil for everything and make me feel like I choose to feel this way.

Anyway, rant over. Hope everyone else is still hanging on.

Thanks for the update bud :wink: And for sharing your story...

I really have been too busy lately but always have you in my thoughts and wish I could help more than just this thread and our #It'sOkayToTalk WhatsApp group. I am glad that you are still tackling things head on, even though you are on new meds and at a new psychiatrist, you are fighting the good fight which you must never give up! Chin up, eyes forward, one foot in front of the other...

...and shout if you need to vent!
 
I was tempted to inquire how all are doing as well. With these short grey winter days fluttering by like pigeons in the mist, I just don't seem to find the time to do much. I'm not a winters child at all. But summers coming, and that enough to keep on keeping on.

Regards
 
Hmmm this looks to be an awesome thread. Mind if I join? Been battling severe depression since 2003 as a side effect of surviving meningitis. Well deafness as well but that's sorted with implants. Don't tend to talk much although not certain if that's the stubborn male part of me or the depression itself. Meds help enormously but bad days and weeks happen still

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Hey @CaveTroll ,we dont mind at all,Welcome on behalf of everyone on the forum,feel free to talk to us and if you need to vent dont hesitate,some of us may not know what you are going through but we all human enough to listen
 
Good morning warriors. Let's continue the good fight this week.
 
I was tempted to inquire how all are doing as well. With these short grey winter days fluttering by like pigeons in the mist, I just don't seem to find the time to do much. I'm not a winters child at all. But summers coming, and that enough to keep on keeping on.

Regards

Keep on keeping on @Raindance :wink: Summer is around the corner...
 
Hmmm this looks to be an awesome thread. Mind if I join? Been battling severe depression since 2003 as a side effect of surviving meningitis. Well deafness as well but that's sorted with implants. Don't tend to talk much although not certain if that's the stubborn male part of me or the depression itself. Meds help enormously but bad days and weeks happen still

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Anyone is welcome and everyone is encouraged to participate :wink: We may not have advice but can provide perspective from our own lives so vent away. @brotiform started a WhatsApp group if you or anyone wants to join, PM if you do.
 
We fight as hard and much as we can. And when we cannot fight it alone, we have this support!
 
Who can I phone for a quick conversation about vaping or just a chat? Just something to keep my mind off the terrible thoughts running around?
Hey @JB1987 ,im sorry I wasnt awake last night when you needed to talk to someone,wish I couldve been awake to meet your request,stay strong!
 
Hey @JB1987 ,im sorry I wasnt awake last night when you needed to talk to someone,wish I couldve been awake to meet your request,stay strong!
Was also fast asleep. Hope all is ok. Give us a shout again if you need to mate

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