#ITSOKAYTOTALK - Mental Illness

I didn't sleep well last night. Having had 4 hours sleep and been hearing music in my head all afternoon.

And I got to wait up for my parents as they flew in at 5:30 and taking friends for dinner. Not sure what time they will arrive home.
 
Nights like tonight there are only 3 things keeping me from eating a bullet.
1. I don't own a firearm
2. It would destroy my mom
3. It would orphan my dog

I just feel really old, alone and left behind and the silver lining just isn't showing for me right now.
 
Viper_SA said:
Nights like tonight there are only 3 things keeping me from eating a bullet.
1. I don't own a firearm
2. It would destroy my mom
3. It would orphan my dog

I just feel really old, alone and left behind and the silver lining just isn't showing for me right now.
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Hi Boet, you having a real downer of an evening, but know that just the fact that you can talk about it, and see what the impact will be is the silver lining.

Strongs to you and hope you feel better, we all feel older and left behind at one stage or the other, but there is still so many things we have to experience. There is nothing like a coffee and watching a sunrise to lift the soul, or just sharing a cuppa with a Mom. Give your Mom a hug and sommer give your dog a kiss, that’s unconditional love from 2 very very important persons in your life.

Keep strong meneer, we are all here for you. One day at a time, one step at a time.
 
M.Adhir said:
So.
Been looking around at pricing to seek medical/ psych advice for a significant person in my life.
Average consults start at 3k for initial. average follow up is around 1500/1800...
pay directly, claim from medical aid and hope they cover everything.
what happens to all those without money ?!? is it cheaper to stay mentally and emotionally unwell?
its a sad state of affairs.
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Unfortunately there are a lot of people in that situation @M.Adhir , and it is scary. Wishing you luck in providing the help needed for that significant person.
 
I recently started medication, which is a big step for me since I have grown up with this mentality that you don't need or shouldn't use medication to control or better your mental health as its a sign of weakness I guess.

Boy was I wrong, it's probably one of the best choices I have ever made in my life.

For the first time in forever, I don't have to carry an inhaler for anxiety attacks and I wake up every morning feeling positive.

Obviously life wont be perfect but its a whole lot better when the serotonin ends up in the right place :')

" There is no key to happiness, the door is always open."
 
I heard this morning that one of my brother's friends who he went through his second stint in rehab with, committed suicide in Thailand after relapsing :disappointed: I have been too self absorbed of late but am thinking of anyone and everyone out there struggling. Keep struggling, it is worth it...
 
No! So sorry to hear that @Neuk

I lost a good friend to suicide at 17 and still think about her everyday. She left two kids behind. They both are grown up now and both got full disclosure when they were older.
 
RainstormZA said:
No! So sorry to hear that @Neuk

I lost a good friend to suicide at 17 and still think about her everyday. She left two kids behind. They both are grown up now and both got full disclosure when they were older.
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Thanks @RainstormZA :wink: I didn't know him well but I can only imagine how it is affecting my brother who has shared some of his darkest moments with him on his journey battling his addiction.
 
Viper_SA said:
Thanks for the chat on Whatsapp buddy
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I am no expert, no guru, no doctor, no psychologist, no therapist, no counselor, no body that can do anything other than be an ear to listen and a mouth to share my experience in life thus far. I hope that it helps you, even in some small way, to just get through one more day and then another and another and another...
 
Dela Rey Steyn said:
This has been a better week than the last 2, actually feeling good about the weekend for a change! How are you doing bud?
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Good to hear bud ;-) Enjoy the weekend!

I am doing well, busy at work and at home, in the thick of repairs at home with some work left to be done. We are also slowly getting some planned changes/additions done at the house which is fun. Next week is the last 'quiet' week as the new addition to the canine family arrives so I need to take advantage of the quiet and get as much done as possible.
 
Neuk said:
Good to hear bud ;-) Enjoy the weekend!

I am doing well, busy at work and at home, in the thick of repairs at home with some work left to be done. We are also slowly getting some planned changes/additions done at the house which is fun. Next week is the last 'quiet' week as the new addition to the canine family arrives so I need to take advantage of the quiet and get as much done as possible.
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You still in Joburg Neuk?
 
HI friends - my story...
The last 2 years were real bad for me and all the trauma and drama is starting to take it's toll:
been in bad bike accident , broke hip, femur and ankle One week hospital ,5 weeks wheel chair,
Half sister committed suicide =overdose
Mom passed away [old age 96] I am the only son , last born and totally committed to MOM.
The relationship with my only sister is toxic ,She inherited the house and everything inside , I get all the savings and investments.
On the day of Mom's Passing the bxxxh accused me of stealing Mom's rings , while I took her BIBLE from her bedroom . I offered to go to police for polygraph , ''no , don't worry about it etc...''
Mom made a pewter mirror years ago ,That was all I asked for - there is PLENTY antiques that I did'nt asked for ONE THING IS GUARANTEED - SHE WILL NEVER SEE ME AGAIN .
The DR. at RAF stated that I am suffering from POST TRAUMATIC STRESS DISORDER , I shake like a leaf ,get panic attacks
and get black outs for 10 - 30 secs at a time, Boss has send me home twice already. Seeing Dr at the moment and are on 4 types of tablets,[URBANOL .ZYTOMIL ,TRANQIPAM and INDOBLOK 40]
See psyc for first time end of MAY .I feel like I'm going totally mad ,and
Just popping the lot.
Thanks for reading this
 
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ARYANTO said:
HI friends - my story...
The last 2 years were real bad for me and all the trauma and drama is starting to take it's toll:
been in bad bike accident , broke hip, femur and ankle One week hospital ,5 weeks wheel chair,
Half sister committed suicide =overdose
Mom passed away [old age 96] I am the only son , last born and totally committed to MOM.
The relationship with my only sister is toxic ,She inherited the house and everything inside , I get all the savings and investments.
On the day of Mom's Passing the bxxxh accused me of stealing Mom's rings , while I took her BIBLE from her bedroom . I offered to go to police for polygraph , ''no , don't worry about it etc...''
Mom made a pewter mirror years ago ,That was all I asked for - there is PLENTY antiques that I did'nt asked for ONE THING IS GUARANTEED - SHE WILL NEVER SEE ME AGAIN .
The DR. at RAF stated that I am suffering from POST TRAUMATIC STRESS DISORDER , I shake like a leaf ,get panic attacks
and get black outs for 10 - 30 secs at a time, Boss has send me home twice already. Seeing Dr at the moment and are on 4 types of tablets,[URBANOL .ZYTOMIL ,TRANQIPAM and INDOBLOK 40]
See psyc for first time end of MAY .I feel like I'm going totally mad ,and
Just popping the lot.
Thanks for reading this
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I feel you, years of domestic violence has left me with permanent ptsd and I have to be alone most of the time. People scare me and I’m glad I’m my trade, I don’t have to deal with people. Just machines, and plants. Lol. Basically it’s so bad I’ve become an introvert and never go out anymore.
 
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